"I'm Excited Now"

Yesterday was a day of relief and a day that I have lost sleep over for the past year and a half. I have stressed over Cam’s schooling and what to do for what feels like forever. I have asked different specialists millions of questions, talked about it to my husband, mom and friends over and over and over and over again. His teachers last year were wonderful and he loved them. But he still wasn’t getting all of the help he needs. He wasn’t being understood and I felt like I had to explain every situation to them when I feel like some of the situations should be understood and be able to be handled differently. From the beginning of him starting at this school I have worried that they wouldn’t truly understand him and his issues. I kept him there hoping that they would, worried about a change again for him and worried about upsetting others. After going through this for a year and a half and being sick about it, my husband and I decided it was time to make the change.

So, yesterday after having a few long talks with Cam about the change over the past couple of weeks I pulled the band-aid and transferred him to the school that is best for him. Of course it’s not a definite that it is the best choice but with all of my research and discussions it feels like the best choice for him. When he and his sister were sitting there yesterday while I filled out paperwork he had already started to talk to another little boy and though he may not see him again because the little boy is in a different grade, it showed me right there that we are moving in the right direction. When talking to the staff I already felt like it was a better change and then when leaving Cam said to me “mommy, I wasn’t happy at first when you told me about this place, but now I am very excited and can’t wait for school start.” You put all of those together and I left feeling like we had made the right decision.

For the first time in what truly feels like forever I am seeing the sun in the midst of this Autism life that has felt like we’re constantly living in a storm. I feel like Cam will finally get the help, accommodations, schooling that he needs and deserves. He is excited about it and that right there makes it feel like the right decision because he doesn’t get excited about change….at all. So the sun is shining, the hope is back and life is good right now.